Friday, May 30, 2008
the month of may is coming to an end.
but before i start to emo, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHUA MEI MEI! thank you for being ever so retarded, for letting me laugh at your funny pronounciations and letting tease you. thank you for always being so enthusiastic about everything under the sun, that's why we always have great fun. please do stay this way and i hope you had a great birthday! heehee. I LOVE YOU MEI. <333
over the past five months, i've grew to love/miss/cherish many things. i missed the times in mj, and my 08S113. i grew to love tj (which i've regretted going initially), 23/08 and my dearest chamber ensemble. yet at the same time, i missed the old tk days, the tk clique. not forgetting my kcp clique too (who broke my heart today cause i thought we could really go for lunch).
but why does my heart sink even more, when i told my mom my decision. shouldn't i feel relieved because i've made a decision? why do i sound firm, yet feel so uncertain inside. i suddenly feel as though the whole world is about the collapse on me. i hope i won't regret this.
but to all the friends i've made here, in singapore, we're always be friends forever, yeah?
at least we still have roughly two months together. (:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:28 AM
Thursday, May 29, 2008
today is the best!
went to school in the morning to pass huiching the concert dvds. and that's it, because i didn't go for lessons. :/ so, i spent my entire morning nagging at someone to finish his string quartets. (SERIOUSLY, me? nagging? i'm gaining more people who nags at me though.)
then i rushed down to parkway to meet veronica! who has become snow white. heehee. the five hours i spent with her was LOVE. though all we did was just to talk. we talked through lunch, while walking around parkway for countless times, and through a drink. (: we just had too much to talk about. and veronica gave me a lot of encouragement to just go for canada. so i've almost sorted out my thoughts and come to a decision? I LOVE YOU VERON! i can't wait till you get back from indonesia then we can have another chatting session! <333
look at what yixiu said to me today.
"and alot of them should be quite interested in you anyway"
(i had high hopes)
"cuz rarely got ppl suddenly pop in during last yr of high sch, and somemore come from s'pore"
(WTH. i thought yixiu will say something that will make me high and happy for once.)
but, i'm still scared. I NEED TO GET OVER THIS FEAR. someone help me, please. ):
and i'm still worried at how my section is dying. my president promised to think of something to save my section though. how sweet of him right. HAHAHA.
i'm a much happier girl today!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:53 AM
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
i'm tired. i'm really very tired today.
i don't want to try anymore. i don't understand why i am trying so hard in everything. i don't really see a point.
for this very split second, i don't want to care about anything. i just want to hide in my little bubble and, rest.
but at the end of the day, i know i will, because that'll make people happy.
(and i can't let it daunt me)
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:03 AM
Monday, May 26, 2008
i'm tired, but extremely satisfied with what i've done for the past 3 days.
saturday was an eventful day. had violin 2 outing without weiting, because we were getting stuff for weiting. i was 2 hours late. :/ we went to get section slippers and section rings! then met nat and mei to discuss about jialing and yixiu's surprise party. after which, i went for TJCO concert. which was really good.
sunday was jialing and yixiu's surprise party. i met yixiu and kept her company, in order to bring her to esplanade rooftop. but anyway, the surprise kind of failed. but it was great spending time with my girlfriends again. i was happy cause i could be my true self, and just get really high and do stupid things. having a long talk with yixiu is the BEST. i've kind of sorted out my thoughts.
today was chamber outing. met my v2 at simei after math lecture to prepare weiting's gift. then had buffet at han restaurant. ate A LOT. i'm going to put on 5kg, seriously. had fun running around, stealing people's food. after which, the j2s played a prank on us, and erm, it didn't really turned out pleasant. but anyway, headed to tampines arcade after that, watched them para para, and then home!
i'm feeling down now and i've no idea why. this is terrible and i'm scaring people off. maybe i'm stressing myself out too much, unnecessarily. :/
i have unconfirmed plans for the rest of the week. do date me, alright? (:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
12:28 PM
Friday, May 23, 2008
today, or rather yesterday, was mardi gras. and i had fun. i really did.
i had fun during chamber. well, i always do. though i was quite stoned at times and extremely annoyed by janan (but i'm learning not to bear grudges, so it's fine now, i guess). then the entire ensemble got kind of emo by seniors' farewell speech. it reminded me of tk string, when we used to be emo whenever something happens to our section and we'll cry together. but anyway, 4 months have been really brief and the seniors are leaving already. i'm not done terrorising them yet. ): oh well. good things must come to an end. and congrats to the new exco! I KNEW judith will get it. heehee. and everyone is jealous of violin 2! cause we're super nice to weiting! YAY.
i saw huixin at mardi gras and she was being unusually high, so it was pretty strange.i can't wait for 08S113 to meet up, though jasminelaw doesn't really want me anymore. then shil, oli and mei came too. heehee. stayed in school till eleven plus until i got chased out cause i refused to go home. it's last day of term 2 anyway! LAST day of school maybe?
i'm really tired, but still high. my throat hurts quite badly cause i screamed too much i think. and i've got to wake up early tomorrow and be at city hall by 11am. omg. after which i've got to last till night for TJCO concert.
my schedules are all over the place. i shall go plan them. HEEHEE.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
12:34 PM
Monday, May 19, 2008
i have to stop thinking, if not i'll sway.
oh damn it. why is the human brain/heart so confusing. since i was so determined a few days ago, i should just stay that way. i can worry about other things or be freaked out like anybody's business once i'm there. either way, i'll regret it, somehow. but since i've made up my mind, i should stick to it.
i still remember the days when i tried coaxing clarissa into going to canada with me to study. with free lodging provided. but i guess she didn't find it attractive enough. HAHA. but those were the days, when leaving for canada seemed like a thousand years away.
it's time for distancing i guess. since talking about it doesn't help, i shouldn't make others sad too. so byebye. (:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:41 AM
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
let me give a recount of what happened during biology lecture today. heehee.
well, i was feeling bored and started drawing on jessica's pinkies. the thing was, the drawing was disfigured, so i decided to rub it off and realised that it wouldn't come off. after which i coloured the pinkie with orange highlighter (which came off) and blue marker. after trying to rub the blue marker off in vain, i decided to get leon to help. which was a terrible mistake, seriously. he started 'sawing' her poor pinkie with my eraser, while trying to pay attention. and the next moment we knew it, jessica's poor pinkie was bleeding.
i couldn't stop giggling at all. i nearly ran out of the lecture hall to laugh. at least i helped jessica wrap her pinkie up with tissue, and it looked erm, BIG. since well, it was a whole piece of tissue.
i NEED to practice violin/piano.
i NEED a 113 outing.
i NEED a haircut in hong kong.
i NEED to think of a way to get out of JCTs.
(oh damnit.)
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
6:20 AM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
today, i miss 08S113.
it was sudden and random. that 08S113 came into my mind. while i was, erm, doing chemistry tutorial. anyway, i thought of all the old times we had. the time when they offered me
indirect consolation while i was bawling my head off. the time when we were entertained in gp lesson by ck. the time when the foursome doddled on ally's foolscap during math lecture. the time at the class bbq at bj's house. the time when huixin would run the moment she sees me. the time when i got super freaked out by jasminelaw because she lost her phone. the time when we would go to the discussion room and have retarded conversations. the time when i would get pulled by jasminelaw to go on detours around the school. ETC.
that was a long list. but anyway, this just shows how much i miss 113. OH WELL. since this had been random, maybe i'll miss you tomorrow! (:
i should really stop skipping school. and i should really have a good talk with my parents. someone give me the courage?
i sense another breakdown coming.
[i'm not a monster, judith. heehee]
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
6:18 AM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
can someone tell me how pig i am.
today basically goes like this. if you don't find me sleeping in class/lectures, you find me snacking on LOTS of tidbits. oh myy.
and i'm totally screwed. because i do not know how to manage my time at all. i have a killer biology test tomorrow, which i seem to think that i can finish studying for in 15 minutes. and then, i have a math test on thursday, which i seem to think that tutorials 8-13 can be done within half an hour.
someone, please just shot me.
and i'm half excited, and half dreading this weekend. i hope it'll be brilliant because there's tj choir concert on friday, tj band concert on saturday and hc choir concert on sunday. this just makes me miss chamber's concert more. :/
it's biology time. good luck to me. (:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
5:18 AM
Saturday, May 03, 2008
it's 45 more minutes to the end of jialing's birthday, so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHJUMMA!thank you for all your constant naggings.
thank you for your retardedness.
thank you for being you, because it's your silliness that really crack us up.
it's kind of sad not having you beside me in class anymore, no more sleeping partner, no more entertainer, etc.
even so,
I LOVE YOU JIALING!
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
11:15 AM
Friday, May 02, 2008
yesterday's concert was a blast.
LA NOUVELLE MUSIQUE!
despite the long day, and having slept at 2.30am because i had to rush my PI, i had loads of fun. well, it wasn't that fun at rehearsal and it didn't really helped cause i had headaches and dizzy spells.
anyway before the concert started, i saw shilbe and jialing walking in with a huge minnie helium balloon. and i think they were the only one with such a balloon? HAHA. but it's cuteee. jasminelaw came! jessicalaw too of course. but i didn't get to see small and smellyyy!
concert started and i was very high. i was practically jumping here and there. and though the skit was terribly embarrassing, everything else was fine! but we didn't get to play our encore piece, which is really disappointing. oh well.
went for celebration after the concert. i walked to bugis in my gown. :/ got kind of emo during supper. because jasper was already suggesting plans for next year. so if everything goes as planned, i'll have 3 more weeks of practice.
OH. and violin2 is like the best and most bonded section. (:
but if i end up staying in singapore until next year, one of the main reason will be chamber ensemble. i love you, chamber.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:56 PM
